When I was a kid ,I always said that I wanted to be happy when I grow up ,but then I actually did some growing up and realised it isn’t really possible to be happy all the time .That is just not how things work .So I started thinking again and I decided that if not happy ,I would instead happily settle for an interesting life . So I endeavored to always find interesting experiences and interesting things to do .When I was in the moment I had the time of my life but when I was out of it .I was miserable , the happiness was fleeting and the memories weren’t enough.So then I revised my earlier beliefs to rather first be interesting and be interested in the world. Things changed dramatically then . Even boring ,unhappening times transformed into an another realm , my personal growth was tremendous , my view of life changed for the better. So don’t say you want to be happy , say you want to be interesting .
Afterlife is such a controversial topic.What happens after we die ? Do we reincarnate as an animal or a person ? Do we transcend the cycle of life and death ? Are we chosen into heaven or condemned to hell ? Or do we become a ghost ? Each religion has its own answers and theories . There is no proof , no logic just blind belief in whatever that appeals to your conscious.
The most common belief is that our mortal bodies are just entrapment ,vessels of our immortal soul. Now the question arrises What is a soul? How do we know we even know we have one ?
It’s all very confusing and the debate goes on and on. There is no right or wrong answer. There is no answer. This is your only chance , earth is your kingdom.There are no golden stairways or ditches of pitchforks. Either you make it or you don’t .There are no do-overs in another life.
Maybe our last breath is a full stop.The End . The beginning of Oblivion. A black hole. -Ann
There are days when your skin itches and you feel restrained in your body .You feel lighter than air , longing for the sky with an intensity that scares you.Every exhale lifts you up. You want to be anywhere ,everywhere at once. Move , move , move just shake the world up. Nothing can touch you are here ,this is your day , your time , your life and you have absolute control .Destiny and fate won’t dare interfere in your mighty plans. Pettiness of the past is very far back and the tensions of the future haven’t arrived. You are in love with everyone that is a part of your life and everything that is a part of you.Your happiness is so real that it becomes a separate entity taking over your surrounding, spilling hope everywhere. Now and Forever blend in the infinity of time.The stars seem to whisper deep secrets of the universe to you. Moon is your best friend. Your chaos is balanced and everything is sorted.
“There are two basic motivating forces: fear and love. When we are afraid, we pull back from life. When we are in love, we open to all that life has to offer with passion, excitement, and acceptance. We need to learn to love ourselves first, in all our glory and our imperfections. If we cannot love ourselves, we cannot fully open to our ability to love others or our potential to create. Evolution and all hopes for a better world rest in the fearlessness and open-hearted vision of people who embrace life.” ― John Lennon
I have so many irrational fears ,yet when I ask myself that if I did do this , what’s the worse that could happen ? The answer always surprises me and I realise I wasn’t afraid of what could happen but of the unknown .
Don’t struggle against everything .Don’t let the fact that you normally don’t do it , stop you or else all your life you will have a big chip of What on your shoulder.
Bad experiences make good stories good experiences are worth it So try something new .Stop resisting .
Good life are like good dreams .They start from the middle ,where you have no idea what.s happening yet you are so invested ,so that you do not care .That you let go , give up the control and let the flow takes you wherever it wants to .Because you know that wherever you might end up ,will be immensely better than where you would have been ,had you tried to meddle . -Ann
“I can see you have a great deal of water in your personality. Water never waits. It changes shape and flows around things, and finds the secret paths no one else has thought about — the tiny hole through the roof or the bottom of the box. There’s no doubt it’s the most versatile of the five elements. It can wash away earth; it can put out fire; it can wear a piece of metal down and sweep it away. Even wood, which is its natural complement, can’t survive without being nurtured by water. And yet, you haven’t drawn on those strengths in living your life, have you?”
― Arthur Golden ,Memoirs of a Geisha
Two faced people ,that’s what you hear. But people are not a shallow pool .Most of them are a kaleidoscope and the others a prism ,you won’t know what light will bring out what in them.
For your parents, you are a daughter/son .
For your siblings ,you are their sister/brother.
For your boss, an employee.
For your teacher you are a student.
You might me a good daughter but a shitty friend Or you can be a top Student ,but a naughty sister .The point is not one person can judge you wholly. For each person you are different ,you play a different role ,a different part in their life .Whatever they say is not what makes you.
So the next time someone says something , that hurts you don’t let it get to your heart .Or if someone praises you , don’t let it get to your head. And don’t judge people on one sole action.
I close my eyes and reach out to the higher beings in the universe .I ask all the gods that were ,are and will be to influence things to more favorable positions for me .In the same breath I ask them for tangible objects and I ask them for intangible favors .Things that might only matter for a day or a lifetime come together .Needs and wants merge into one entity.In return I offer false promises, empty actions ,bribes and mild threats ; anything my meagre self could entice an omniscient power with.
Are gods real or just a powerful whim of our hopeful minds concocted in the times of distress and needs ?
“Religion has convinced people that there’s an invisible man … living in the sky. Who watches everything you do every minute of every day. And the invisible man has a list of ten specific things he doesn’t want you to do. And if you do any of these things, he will send you to a special place, of burning and fire and smoke and torture and anguish for you to live forever, and suffer, and suffer, and burn, and scream, until the end of time. But he loves you. He loves you. He loves you and he needs money.” ― George Carlin
Types Of Gods
- The incredible humans who over time through rumors and word of mouth transcended from mere history lore to godliness.
- The forces of nature ,the native spirits of our realm, the guardians of the elements ,the divine personification of places or supernatural powers
- The gods of our mythological stories that are given sentience through our belief and faith into supreme beings.
- An omnipresence collective conscious,overseeing harmony and balance over our tiny part of universe.
You Made me an Architect
Everything ends. Relationships the most. And there is no such thing as a clean breakup Emotions are messy and they will create a dent or a hole.If it meant anything, anything at all it will hurt a like someone reached in you and messed up your insides. And you will withold into yourself.Reluctant to let anyone else in. Lest they do the same damage .Building walls and dam. Making it impossible for the next person. Expecting them to clean up the mess someone else left behind . Becoming numb doesn’t solve anything .You will never experience anything worth ,if you die inside .So take another chance and another and another ,until you are there!
In the End you are only person you can rely on ,family and friends don’t matter. You solve your own problems ,get over your own issues and keep your own council .That is the way things should be and the next time you feel like reaching out ,slap yourself hard ,because that’s your stupid heart talking, Your moronic irrelevant need of connection demanding . People don’t help ,they make things worse ,then there was to begin with .It,s not their fault, they just lack the perspective and u cant give ur viewpoint just by talking. So the next time and every other fucking time this happens ,just keep your drama to yourself .Stop making yourself so vulnerable because in the end you are the only person that can do anything about anything . You alone have the power .So either you can whine all you want , invest urself in false sympathy , talk it out with someone ,get distracted or you just wait things to settle down and sort through the mess yourself .Be Strong.